This week I was taken down by the nasty cold/flu and was forced to take almost two days off of work – something I NEVER do… it got me thinking about why I worry so much about calling in sick when I have a fever and know I shouldn’t be at work potentially infecting others. What makes me feel others should take the time off, but I should rally and show up even though I need to rest and won’t be productive if I do go? What makes other employees “fake” calling in sick all the time with no sense of guilt? Is it my work ethic? Catholic upbringing? Need to feel needed? It all seems so ridiculous…
I wonder if workers (perhaps myself included) want so desperately to feel important in their job that they convince themselves the world will fall apart if they aren’t there? I notice it’s hard for me to take time off work, and when I do, I have to force myself not to check my email incessantly. But seriously, what crisis (related to my job) could possibly happen on a Saturday night that couldn’t wait until Monday to be resolved? I think perhaps it’s my OCD… I hate having emails in my inbox, things on my to-do list, or anyone waiting for me to figure something out. I want tasks completed, goals accomplished, my plate clean…. Not that those goals are realistic or even desirable. After all, with nothing left to complete, how would I remain gainfully employed? Emails are communication, that won’t end because as soon as I finish one job, another one will arise; that’s the nature of work, right? So how does one, as an educational leader, discern between a person who works hard and person who hardly works until they truly see that person in action over time? I believe that I am trustworthy to do my best, but do I just assume that others are as well?
In processing my notes, observations, and synthesis of my organizational visit, I have been thinking about what the operations manager discussed in his description of hiring new personnel. He said that he and his colleague (another manger) have become better at identifying competent people over time and that there is less turnover as a result. Last year I attended a Leadership Institute where Dr. Dave Logan (co-author of Tribal Leadership) was the keynote speaker. He instructed us to hire for values and train for skills; he stated that everyone can be trained, but if a person does not possess values in-line with the organization, they will not reach their potential to contribute to the greater good. I believe I am a fairly good judge of character, but how can I be certain a person’s goals are in line with my department's/organization's goals? Is it just about following your gut and/or having faith?
While I believe I am learning a great deal about leadership, I have a feeling that only time will help me to develop the keen awareness to judge potential employees; in the meantime, I think there will be trial and error from which I will need to learn.